Rejection

 

A bad news came today, for a prize that I was really expecting to get. I had a high hope.

For a moment, I thought, rejection comes to me quite often these days and my poor heart is still trying to figure out how to handle the flood of emotions.

"Don't pretend that you haven't been to something worse than this", says brain. "You should already get used to all the bad that comes".

"Just give me some time", heart says, "every emotion deserves to be felt and acknowledged".

Then heart goes on crying.

"Can you cry quietly? My whole body aches" says brain.

....

"Your thoughts are way louder", says heart.

....

Rejection is normal in academia and life, we experience it all the time, they say.

All pains, however, are new.

I'm not that sad and not that depressed. Just, wounds, small or big, need time to heal.

 

Edmonton, July 07, 2023.